Hi all,
I have struggled with low mood as long as I can remember and realise now that I suffered from OCD for a time as a teenager. I also had a difficult time in my teens/ early twenties as my mother was admitted twice to a clinic with alcoholism and my father suffered from ill health since I was little. However, after leaving home and building a career, meeting my long term partner and my Mum getting sober, life has been much better although I sometimes feel that I hold myself back from taking risks and making changes in my life as I am too scared to "rock the boat". I had my son two years ago and he really is the light of my life. I have struggled a lot with my emotions since though - getting anxious about his sleep, worrying about everything, finding it hard to be with my family and partner. I often wish that me and my little boy could run away and start a new life! Lately things have been particularly hard, with family health issues, work and money problems. My partner and I spend every weekend arguing; he says I'm no fun anymore and I have to change. I resent him as I feel that he does nothing to help at home or help organise our child but wonder if this is unfair as he works long hours in a management role (I work 25 hrs a week in a management role too). I feel like our relationship has totally disintegrated and actually feel numb when I think about him. I sometimes feel like I would be happier without him, but I wouldnt want anyone if that makes sense. My GP gave me Prozac some time ago which made me feel really odd and I stopped it after a few days. I dont know if what I feel about my partner is real, or is tainted because I could be depressed. Ive had the cold the last few days and feel particularly low, I just dont know what to do and want my little boy to have a happier life than I have. Sorry for the ramble, any advice or shared experiences would be really appreciated
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Unicornshorn · 30/10/2016 07:17
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