Depression or self pity?

[mrsm12]

I dont really know where to start.
I have 16 month old twins and a 3.5 year old. Things have been tough since the twins were born but i thought it was just standard madness of having 2x new borns and a testing toddler. Things seem to be getting harder instead of easier, theres no let up.
I went to my gp 2 months ago and told her how overwhelmed and exhausted i was feeling, her advice was to get bloods taken and for me and dh to get out together once a week (easier said than done hasnt happened yet) and that things should settle it was just a rough time (dh had a serious health issue and it was a week before our wedding)
Weddings over, dh health problem is as resolved as its going to be and im feeling worse and worse. I cry daily for no reason, im irritable and snap at the kids all the time, im constantly exhausted, its like i cant keep the mask up anymore, its a struggle to do it the days im in work.
I dont enjoy my kids and if anyone offered to take them id gladly hand them over.
Is this something thats going to pass and do i just need a kick up the bum and stop feeling sorry for myself?

[dangermouseisace]

it does sound like you are a bit depressed. You've got a lot going on stress wise, which will have impacted on your mental health. When I'm unwell I find it difficult to be with the kids- get detached.

I'd go back to the GP- life has settled down and you're not feeling better, you don't have to carry on like this.

[mrsm12]

Thanks danger mouse, went to the gp and started on meds so hoping I will feel better soon.

[dangermouseisace]

well done you. Hope they start to work soon- hang on in there with the initial side effects. Have you got a fairly soon follow up appt (I hope?)

[mrsm12]

Yup have to go back to the gp in 3 weeks and shes recommended looking in to mindfulness aswell

[dangermouseisace]

that's good. I found mindfulness useful for not snapping at the kids at the very least!