Don't know what to do.

[Nerdygalwithabook]

Hi
I posted this a couple of days ago but lacked much response so thought I would post again


02/07/2016 21:31 Nerdygalwithabook

Hi

Here is a bit of backstory.

been on anti Depressents for nearly 6 years, came off of them a while ago. I am turning 20 this month.

I have started going downhill again. Bad anxiety, on valium, can't leave house properly etc, can't handle even being around my partner sometimes. Lost all sex drive, not eating enough, sleeping a lot. Sometimes on bad days get very very suicidal.

My Doctor has referred the crisis team round a few times but they have discharged me everytime. he is trying to appeal fro admission.

My partners Dad has shouted a bit aggressively at the crisis team a couple of times and refused to let them in, or hasn't told me they have arrived to see me, which hasn't helped. So all they can offer is a waiting list for another therapy that i would have to travel too, which I couldnt.

Basically they all think I am making it up, doing it for attention. My partner is going on holiday abroad for two weeks soon and I have been told I have to leave for these two weeks. Basically I was going to go to my mums soon, they are constructing a room for me to stay in, BUT now I'm going to have to go through the stress of going there sleeping on the floor for two weeks, coming back, trying to get more help, and going back again. I dont even think I am strong enough to get there yet! But his parents want me gone. I feel so lost and alone.

Going to A and E is not an option as it would cause too much distress.

I dont know what to do. Just feel like the only thing I can do is to lay in bed and die.

[ProfessorPreciseaBug]

Is your dp's dad part of the problem? Sounds like he is not helping if he won't allow the doctors see you. Am I right in thinking you s living with dp at his parents place? You don't have a room with mum?

Why is dp not taking you on holiday with him?

[Nerdygalwithabook]

Yeah I live with DP and his family. He isn't taking me with him as I am housebound through anxiety.

[Penfold007]

Can you parents come and collect you? It would seem that DP's family don't want to or feel unable to cope with your MH. I'm a bit taken aback that your P is leaving you for two weeks but I'm assuming he is also young.

[Nerdygalwithabook]

I can't go in cars ATM due to anxiety. I know it sounds stupid. Also having to leave means any last chance of help here will go. My parents live quite a way away and their doctors are not so great. Everything is hopeless isn't it.