can someone help me

[Aveiam]

I am so low tonight; I am struggling, I just want to sleep but I can't. It's all too much

[Domino20]

Aveiam, you're not thinking of hurting yourself are you?
What has you so down at the moment?

[Aveiam]

I am, I can't stop thinking about it, it's all I can think about, but I'm too much of a coward to even do that anymore. Everything is just so difficult and I am grieving and hurting too much

[twinsister]

sending hugs, tell us about how you're feeling.

[twinsister]

Have you anyone you can call? Samaritans number is 116 123 and there will be a friendly understanding person to help you talk through how you're feeling. Thinking of you, nights are hard, tomorrow is another day

[Aveiam]

I struggle with the Samaritans as it feels like I'm just saying the same things I'm thinking and they just agree with me. And I think all I want is for someone to say something to make it better and no one can and it hurts more

[cocochanel21]

Hope your ok Aveiam .

[Domino20]

Yes, please do call the Samaritans. I know that awful feeling of wishing to be brave enough to end it. Dreadful. Can you listening to something on YouTube? Have a listen to J Kabat Zinn, great meditations and it will help to still your mind.

[Aveiam]

I have been trying to listen to relaxation thing on YouTube but it's just on in the background now I just can't seem to stop this cycle in my head

[OhStacey]

I understand. I sometimes feel the same.

I find audiobooks are good. My favourite is Harry Potter. By listening to a story I forget my own thoughts X

[Aveiam]

It's horrible. Really horrible in my head and I would like to just not wake up. Because I'm too scared to do anything. And nothing will get better it's all going to get worse and worse

[lilywhiteass]

Hugs things CAN get better, there's always a way. Listen to a podcast, radio 2? Try to think of other things

[Aveiam]

I'm just wanting to stop.
I've tried getting out of bed so I'm not just lying there awake, but it just makes me cry. And I am in bed and reading posts on here and trying to distract myself. But this has to end and I'm scared

[lilywhiteass]

Is there something you want to talk to us about? Or just want some distraction? Anything we can do to help?

[Aveiam]

I'm sorry I know I'm being stupid. And I don't really know why I posted. I know I'm sorry

[lilywhiteass]

You're not being stupid just try and stay calm and get through it.

I suffer bouts of extreme anxiety and right now while I'm out of it I can remember that It does pass. I know it's difficult to remember that while in it xx

[Aveiam]

I just can't stop crying. I feel so very isolated and also selfish and stupid

[Time4adrink]

Sending you hugs. Stay safe x

[OhStacey]

It's ok. People on here do understand. It's hard, it's tough but it will get better.

Try and do something to distract you where to can still rest, so your favourite film or something else to listen to.

[lilywhiteass]

Have a nice hot drink, something milky, try and relax, are you tired?

[Aveiam]

I'm so very tired.
I've been taught how to cut safely. But I'm still scared but it's all I really can think of is that I want to cut so much

[Notbigandnotclever]

Don't cut. Remove anything that you can cut with. Is anyone with you?

[Aveiam]

No nobody. I haven't got any were to put things away

[Time4adrink]

Please please be kind to yourself

[lilywhiteass]

Yes, please look after yourself X

[Aveiam]

:(