Safeguarding referral after suicide attempt

[SSAdvice]

I have name changed for this but am a regular poster and am so worried right now, hoping someone can advise me.

I attempted suicide earlier this week (it obviously failed) when at a really low point where it felt like there was no other way out. I have ongoing mental health issues and have involvement with the MH team.

I was fine afterwards but recognised that I needed support and contacted my mental health support worker to ask to bring my appointment forward. She refused to see me until I had been to A&E as I needed to prove to her I was medically fit despite telling her I wasn't harmed and was fine.

Anyway as I felt like I needed the support I did as asked and went to A&E where they made me sit in a separate room alone for 6 hours and then just took my blood pressure and pulse!!

It was past closing for my regular MH centre at this point so I saw the duty psychiatrist at A&E which I thought was all fine. Came away with some diazepam and some self help advice as well as a follow up appointment for the next day with my regular support worker, all good.

At this point my regular worker told me the A&E psych had sent my notes over and requested that a safeguarding referral was made to social services, she didn't mention this to me at all!! My regular worker now tells me she has no choice but to do as asked and so the referral had gone.

I'm absolutely terrified I'm so scared they will take my children away! I swear they are at no harm and they weren't even in the house at the time. I know it's not ideal having a parent with MH issues but I feel they are well protected from it and are unaware as I have a very supportive partner.

I feel better now and am angry at myself for letting myself get to the low point I did without recognising it and seeking help earlier but now that I'm on the mend I know this will just send me straight back again as I am spending hours crying at the thought of my kids being taken away.

Has anyone ever had this happen to them? What happened and what do I need to be prepared for?

I am a nervous wreck now and questioning everything wondering if social services will use it against me. My house is clean and tidy but my eldest has a hamster in her room, should I move this? How about the fact that my garden needs weeding? Will that look like I'm not coping or will the fact I hate gardening be accepted? Will it look bad that I refused antidepressants? (My GP has strongly advised against them in the past as I've had really bad reactions before).

Honesty any advise will be much appreciated!! Thanks

[SSAdvice]

Ps. Sorry for long post just thought it best to give the whole situation so people can advise better.

[KeemaNaanAndCurryOn]

Stop worrying, this is standard practice if you present to A&E suicidal. It's happened to me and people I know and they're not going to take your children from you.

What happened in my case is that SS spoke to me to ask how I was. Made enquiries about what support I had and then closed the case.

Try not to worry. I know it's hard when you're already suicidal, but it's about checking if you need support. I hope it reassures you a bit.

[SSAdvice]

Thank you I really hope you're right!

[OhTheRoses]

Keema. Are you home? How are you? We've met - I pm'd you when you needed some earplugs.

OP hope all's well - you poor thing.