I have always been what family/friends would jokingly call a hypochondriac but ever since having my second child two years ago I've developed a real obsession/fear that I am going to get Cancer and die. It's getting steadily worse to the point where I have cried at least twice everyday for the last 4 weeks. I play out scenes in my head where the doctor tells me I have Cancer and then I have to tell the kids (7 & 2) constantly and then I end up in floods of tears and on the verge of a panic attack because I can't breath.
Nothing is enjoyable anymore because I'm thinking about how I won't get to do whatever I'm doing anymore when I'm dead. Tonight for example dh is out so me and ds had a film night and now he is sleeping in my bed as a treat, I've been uncontrollably sobbing for the last hour because he was all cuddled up to me and I just keep thinking that if I die he won't be able to do this anymore. DH is useless with stuff like this and won't entertain it at all, I decided to try and start a discussion about it yesterday by emailing him a link to info about health anxiety and he emailed back within minutes jokingly saying "I might just have you sectioned" so I sent one back saying "it's not funny I think there is something wrong with me, I can't keep worrying like this" and he basically replied saying I'm just being silly and to stop thinking about illness all of the time.
Am I just being silly? There are people out there actually dying and I'm here worrying about it happening to me.
I feel sick constantly with worry and I spend ages checking myself for signs of skin cancer and googling symptoms of breast/ovarian/cervical and bowel cancer, it's just constant.
Is there anything I can do for this? I don't see how I can switch off the worry and stress. I had PND after my second baby and was in Citalopram but this isn't depression it genuine fear,
Thank you for reading so sorry it's long x
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Am I just being stupid or is this anxiety?
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Wilberforce2 · 13/05/2016 23:15
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