Sorry new here but long time lurker.
Apologies for my vent , but no gets the depression.
So in brief I've had a complete mental breakdown , been to counselling and was told clinical depression extreme case, basically I'm just numb, I feel fuck all, happiness, excitement, etc just numb all over. So was put on pills and sent on my miserable way.
My question is will I ever get back to my old self I was happy, bouncing of the walls happy, energetic, funny , 3st lighter!
Now I know I need to make changes myself , I'm working on the weight issue tho its holding on tight and refusing to leave.
I have four children and a partner I muddle through life with them but I still can't be like these insanely perfect (I know it's all in my head) mothers that can leap out of bed in the morning (it's like getting out of a pool of tar for me) , tears in their eyes when their child gets a school award, me im just dead I feel nothing of course I clap and smile and praise the child but I feel abnormal.
Just when does get better? Will it get better? What else can I do?
The sad thing is my brother killed himself and that's the only thing that stops me doing it as I've seen the car crash it leaves behind, but I know it's wrong get to feel like this. I'm sick of this can't be arsed attitude.
Apologies for a long winded , pitying post .
Thank you for reading, I don't expect replies /answers
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tiredoflife2016 · 29/04/2016 20:06
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