All I want to do right now is cut. I've been scratching my arm with a paperclip, tying an elastic band around it and flicking, biting my nails off and trying to distract myself with work and on here, but I just keep thinking about cutting and how much more relaxed I'd be if I did it.
Everything is pretty awful today. I have PMT so I know that I'm more on edge than I usually would be. My thoughts are just relentlessly negative and I feel so isolated. I don't want to be a burden and contact friends. I know I'll be more relaxed once I'm at home with DD. But right now, at work, it's hell.
I'm starting DBT next week. I'm seeing regular therapist tomorrow. It feels like my life has imploded - I had over twelve years of having this under control and it's all relapsed.
Today, for a variety of screwed up reasons, is particularly bad. I'm waiting to hear from someone with whom I'm totally emotionally dependent and the waiting is causing everything to spiral into a negative and destructive state. I know the patterns of behaviour; I know how it's been in the past. I just don't seem to have the wherewithal to draw a line and get past it.
Any distractions would be very welcome.
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Massively on edge - can anyone help distract please?
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RelapseCrisis · 11/04/2016 14:27
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