I don't know if I have EUPD (BPD)
I know I have depression anxiety and OCD
Yesterday I was ok. I was sad. I was depressed, anxious and obsessing. But I also laughed and left my home and socialised.
Today I snapped. It started as a normal day. DS father (my DH) rang and I asked about a PT job and childcare arrangements. He started banging on about his plans to leave his job in a year and long term career plans and how his health his failing and I made excuses to end the call. Abruptly.
I texted to apologise for the abruptness and explaining why I found the conversation hard
I got a reply back which summarised as me being a shit person, shit wife and stupid to be even trying to communicate amicably
Several text messages later. I honestly want to end everything. I probably won't.
I packed DS things and dropped him at his dad's. I hate myself for it. But I just can't continue. I can't quite believe myself that Iv abandoned my DS to his father even when his father was telling me he'll call social services and give my DS up and I'm waiving my parental rights because he's going into care
But I'm tidying and cleaning the house now preparing to pack things for hospital
Iv got to be insane haven't I?
But if I get labelled EUPD I'm never going to get my baby back if I get well am I?
I can't believe I woke up ok and I'm here now.
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daring to get labelled with EUPD by going to hospital?
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chipsonsalt · 12/03/2016 17:20
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