I think I might do something

[OhHolyFuck]

I'm waiting until the boys go to bed, I can wait that long, I won't do anything in front of them.
3 hours. I can't think straight. Or maybe I can, maybe this would be for the best, I'm no good for anyone, the boys would cope, they'll have their dad. I'm not even sure why I'm posting

[VagueIdeas]

Are you suicidal?

Can you ring someone? Ask your partner to come home?

[OhHolyFuck]

He's left. He's text fucking someone he met on ps4 game, planning on flying over to see her in 2 weeks.

[VagueIdeas]

Oh, I'm so sorry.

But you can't do this to your children.

[Zucker]

He's an utter arse and you are not.

Can you call someone and tell them how you're feeling?

[MorrisZapp]

Oh bloody hell poor you. Do you have a friend or sibling to chat to? Please don't let your children be motherless, they need, love and want you. Just take it minute by minute and survive however you can.

[OhHolyFuck]

No, bored of talking about it, bored of whinging and whining to everyone, they'll be bored of hearing

[MorrisZapp]

Boredom is fine, Boredom never hurt anybody. If you think you may be a risk to yourself, please speak to somebody. Tell them your true feelings, don't just say you're a bit down. If you were my friend or sister I'd want you to tell me.

[glasgowlass]

OHF are your able to ring the Samaritans just to have a wee chat?
for you love, you've been through a lot.

[OhHolyFuck]

I'm sorry, you're all being kind and trying to help I know but talking doesn't make it better, talking doesn't stop it hurting
It's just unbearably shit and everyone has a breaking point

[DawnMumsnet]

Hi OhHolyFuck,

We're really sorry you're feeling so low.

We've had quite a few reports about your thread from posters who are concerned about you. We hope you don't mind, but when threads such as this are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources - here. You can also go to the Samaritans' website here, or email them on [email protected]. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.

We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.

Sorry for hijacking your thread, OhHolyFuck, and we really hope things start to look up for you soon.

[OhHolyFuck]

Thanks dawn, I know I'm being an arse

[DawnMumsnet]

You're not being an arse at all, just going through a rough time of it.

Please think about calling the Samaritans - they have a new number that's free of charge from a landline or mobile - 116 123.