anxiety attack argh!

[wibblywobbler]

I said something in passing this morning that if only I didn't have my children I could end it all and be free of this depression, finally once and for all

Now I am panicking the universe will give me what I want and take my children away from me in some way.

The universe doesn't always give us what we put out does it??

I know on one level I am being highly irrational but it's set off my anxiety when I was already having a terrible day having woken up crying

I don't need this on top of everything else

[RNBrie]

for you Wibbly - the universe doesn't work like that.

How long have you been having anxiety like this? Are you getting any help with it? It sounds tough.