I was abused by two separate people as a child and one of those people, it has recently;y emerged abused several other pupils at the school I attended and I have decided after much consideration to add my case to the list of charges now against him. As a teen I developed depression and have struggled on and off with it now for 17 years, I developed anorexia in my early twenties and it was a long hard road to get myself healthy which I have been for ten years now (in terms of weight) However, since I reported the offence and gave my statement to the police, I have fallen back into a pattern of tight control over what I am putting into my body and I have lost four stone in six months. I don't want my three beautiful children to see me battle with this disease, but I feel like it now has control over me. I absolutely know I need to address the issue properly and beyond just going back on to antidepressants, which I have already done, but I cant seem to make myself take that final step to actually doing it. My DH is begging me to s-peak to my counsellor but I feel like if I do i simply wont be able to cope with all the feelings that going through the details of what happened to me has dragged up. Will the damage that has been done to me ever stop? Will there ever be a time when what they did isn't just waiting on the sidelines to ruin my life again?
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