Hi all,
I am bi-polar and have been diagnosed with PND. I'm on a mood stabiliser and an AD... baby is 14 weeks old but more like a 10 week old as he was prem. This is relevant!
I am really struggling. I love him more than anything. But its like there are 2 of me. One of me is this perfect loving mother and the other has terrible thoughts which I dont even want to write down let alone say. Suffice it to say my baby deserves the good mother, not the bad.
My mother was very abusive growing up and I know the devastating impact it has on a child and I never want to do that to my son. Its just so hard for me. He is a difficult baby in many ways - he was prem, had some problems in the beginning, developed terrible colic. He's coming out of that now but he still moans and cries an awful lot. I try to always be cheerful for him but its hard. Sometimes it feels like being a carer for a really grumpy person while I am ill.
I was just wondering if there were any other bi-polar Mums out there who had similar experiences, and how you got through it. I work very very hard to be a great Mum. Its hard when my friends babies who are the same age are all smiley etc. and mine is still pretty grouchy - because he actually isnt their age IYKWIM. He is really the age that would match his due date not his birth date.
Thanks for any help, I am at my wits end.
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Bi-polar Mother + Very fussy prem baby = disaster please help
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eenysugarplumfairy · 20/11/2006 16:16
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