anyone awake who feels like listening?

[keepingmum121]

I am feeling so crap about things

[CaitBlanky]

What are you feeling crap about?

[keepingmum121]

I am always a victim. They always pick on me. I'm destined to be revictimised, I'm sure. I can't control it.

[CaitBlanky]

Who picks on you? What makes you vulnerable to them?

[keepingmum121]

All men. First I was targeted 18 years ago and attacked. Then I ran from him and ended up in an abusive marriage with another bastard. Then I escaped that and 12 years later I get targeted again. That was recent. I can't protect myself.

Sorry, I have other threads but no one is around this late.

I'm drunk too. It is the only way to deal with this.

[CaitBlanky]

Keeping - just wanted to let you know, I wasn't ignoring you last night. I lost my internet connection which was really frustrating as I couldn't sleep and would have been happy to chat

[keepingmum121]

Ah, thank you for coming back. funnily enough, my internet also started playing up last night. I wondered if it might be something with this site.

I was in a right state last night. Would have been good to chat so thank you for your willingness.

[windchimes23]

How are you feeling tonight, I'm a dedicated non sleeper. Usually up at 4am if you want to talk.

I like a drink too, numbs it all for a while but not good for my long term depression.

Have you got any RL support?

[keepingmum121]

Hey itisntreallyreal. Thank you!

I am out this evening but may post later on. I usually get most distressed when it gets to the evening and I'm quiet with only my thoughts for company.

[keepingmum121]

Anyone around?

[windchimes23]

Me

[windchimes23]

How are you?

[keepingmum121]

Bit better than last night. Notwithstanding this sweltering heat!!

[windchimes23]

You in the south? It's 32 degrees here in my bedroom. Bastard weather?

[windchimes23]

You sober or had a couple?

[windchimes23]

I've got irn bru, it doesn't quite cut it

[keepingmum121]

I feel fear. Most of the time. My dds are still awake and keep talking to me. My brain might explode! ;)

I want to explain what is going on. Do you mind if I do?

[keepingmum121]

East Midlands. I am drinking stella (first one so totally sober)

[djrmrcbhyvf]

I'm here too altho posting tricky as cat on me ...

[windchimes23]

I have two toddlers, they like to talk all night. It does me in.

[keepingmum121]

Cat on you??? How can you stand the body heat of another mammal???

When my kids were little, I hated reading bedtime stories in this sort of weather because they always wanted to snuggle up.

[windchimes23]

DH just come in to say he heard a noise, yeah that will be 3 year old chatting in her sleep.

[keepingmum121]

You should record her (to play back at her 21st birthday party)! What is she saying? Is it decipherable?

[windchimes23]

Just checked myself out of IP

[keepingmum121]

What is IP?