... And I'm still a bit lost for words. I have a long MH history and spent a long time as an inpatient before I met him. I've worked really hard to turn things around over the last few years, but I had a major relapse in February and I'm still trying to claw my way out of it.
I am tired today. OH woke me up early so that he could get ready for work. We have argued this evening. He said that everyone is always 'walking in eggshells around me' incase I try to 'kill myself again'. I haven't attempted suicide for years, long before I even met OH. Then he backtracked and said that i 'threatened to kill myeslf' which is also not true - I would never do that to somebody, it's horrendous.
I feel so betrayed and hurt that he feels this way. I'm really struggling at the moment, but instead of support from him I'm just getting more stress.
I had a disastrous meeting with my work occupational health department yesterday. I work in a school and the Dr wasn't to recommend that I'm not left alone with any students. It's all been blown out of proportion, I've been in my job since January and I'm bloody good at it. I'm doing a lot better now than I was in February, but because my GP mentioned 'psychotic thoughts' and the fact that I have had thoughts of hurting my children in his report to them and because I'm waiting in an ASD assessment the occy health Dr went to town with things and just wouldn't listen to any of the positive things I have to say.
I'm dreading monday and being called in for a meeting with the head. Instead of supporting me Mr Sparkle has said I was 'stupid and attention seeking' to tell them that. I didn't! It was all on paper anyway, the Dr just kept pushing me for answers about everything.
I am utterly exhausted and I can't keep up with it all any longer.
Sorry this is a bit jumpy all over the place. My head isn't very coherent at the moment
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OH had just told me that I am attention seeking
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