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Mental health

OH had just told me that I am attention seeking

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MummySparkle · 28/05/2015 20:42

... And I'm still a bit lost for words. I have a long MH history and spent a long time as an inpatient before I met him. I've worked really hard to turn things around over the last few years, but I had a major relapse in February and I'm still trying to claw my way out of it.

I am tired today. OH woke me up early so that he could get ready for work. We have argued this evening. He said that everyone is always 'walking in eggshells around me' incase I try to 'kill myself again'. I haven't attempted suicide for years, long before I even met OH. Then he backtracked and said that i 'threatened to kill myeslf' which is also not true - I would never do that to somebody, it's horrendous.

I feel so betrayed and hurt that he feels this way. I'm really struggling at the moment, but instead of support from him I'm just getting more stress.

I had a disastrous meeting with my work occupational health department yesterday. I work in a school and the Dr wasn't to recommend that I'm not left alone with any students. It's all been blown out of proportion, I've been in my job since January and I'm bloody good at it. I'm doing a lot better now than I was in February, but because my GP mentioned 'psychotic thoughts' and the fact that I have had thoughts of hurting my children in his report to them and because I'm waiting in an ASD assessment the occy health Dr went to town with things and just wouldn't listen to any of the positive things I have to say.

I'm dreading monday and being called in for a meeting with the head. Instead of supporting me Mr Sparkle has said I was 'stupid and attention seeking' to tell them that. I didn't! It was all on paper anyway, the Dr just kept pushing me for answers about everything.

I am utterly exhausted and I can't keep up with it all any longer.

Sorry this is a bit jumpy all over the place. My head isn't very coherent at the moment Sad

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kitkat1989 · 30/05/2015 08:41

Im so sohrry youre sufferibg so much

You need to try n stay calm or else youre going to be in a worse place. I dont really have any advice for u tbh just wanted to send u my love n support

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Orange6358 · 30/05/2015 08:49

Aim to be honest with the head so that the best decisions can be made all round for everyone including yourself.

Essentially concentrate on your own self care and getting stronger.

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MummySparkle · 30/05/2015 19:16

Thank you both for your replies. DH and I had a long talk just after my last post. We have agreed a plan to get the house more organised, which should make both of our lives easier, which will stop us each being so frustrated and should stop a lot of the bickering.


Today I am beyond exhausted. I Feel so tired that I can't see straight - my eyes are blurry wth or without my glasses, my face is tingling with tiredness and my head is full of fog. I'm struggling with the simplest of tasks, dropping things, bashing into things, and generally not functioning properly.

Do you think I should email the head now and let her know that I wasn't happy with the way the occy health meeting went? Or should I wait until I hear from her? If I sent an email now, how on earth do I word it?

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Chapuys · 31/05/2015 21:31

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MummySparkle · 01/06/2015 09:27

I've woken up feeling a bit more refreshed this morning, thankfully!

Have emailed the head to let her know it didn't go well, and I've also emailed my immediate boss. The recommendation that I'm not left alone with students will directly affect her. The head says she will schedule a meeting for this week.

I'm walking a dog at the moment, thankfully I don't start til 10:30 on a Monday so it gives me a chance to get my head together!

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prorsum · 03/06/2015 10:44

I hope you're feeling better today. I also hope your DH has apologized for his appalling comment. Be well.

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