I just need somewhere to write this down I don't think I'm looking for an answer
I'm having such a rough time at the moment, there's a whole lot of shit landed on me recently and it appears it won't fucking stop.
My mum is dying
My long term relationship has ended
I had to leave my puppy
I'm back at my mums with no home, no job, no money and no future
Tonight I don't think I can get any lower - I earlier found a lump in my breast - I can't tell anyone or talk about it as everyone has enough on their plates right now - see above - my mum. I did tell my ex but he clearly can't deal with it.
The ex and I have just 60 minutes ago had the discussion that we can not stay in contact with each other any more because it's just so fucking painful - he's struggling hugely too and it's probably not healthy for either of us tbh.
I've cried and sobbed quietly for the last hour so that my mum doesn't hear and I've had a panic attack too - I can't calm myself down properly.
The anti-depressants that I was given last week are sat on the bed in front of me and I'm still dithering to take the first one - I'm afraid to be on them but I'm afraid to be off them too. I know I should but I just can't do it.
Who/what ever is throwing shit my way, please, I beg you to stop - I'm not strong, I can't fucking cope with any more.
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CarbeDiem · 27/04/2015 22:44
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