I've had depression for about 14 months. It's fluctuated and I have been going generally downhill since Christmas. At that point, I started to be more honest with my CBT therapist and GP about how suicidal and useless I felt. That led to me being referred to the crisis team and mental health team. Crisis team pretty useless and MHT just tinkered with my medication, with little effect. After I took an overdose which only failed because I threw up, I was referred for psychotherapy which everyone said would be the key to me improving, along with continuing to open up about how I felt.
I'm not great at opening up unless I rate the person. CBT person is ok but she's passing me on to the psychotherapist. GP was great and really 'got' me but is now on maternity leave. I'm really struggling without having her to talk to, to be honest BUT in a way it is good because I had got to be far too open with her, which resulted in her writing to the MHT, which resulted in them giving me choice of hospitalisation or home treatment team intervention. They've now discharged me, which is good because I found it intrusive.
So now I have new GP and new therapist. I don't know how honest to be. I can fake ok. I am more scared of being hospitalised than I am of how I feel. I've felt suicidal for so many months that it has become normal. Being hospitalised would feel humiliating, as it would lead to too many people knowing what is going on. It won't help my situation either.
On the other hand, if I don't tell the truth about how I feel, can they help me?
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How to get the balance right about being honest
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knowinghowtobe · 25/04/2015 18:41
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