I've been on prozac for abt 4 years now. The problem is I really struggle to get to the surgery to hand in the repeat form and then have to go back 2 days later to collect so when I'm going through a bad spell I often end up without meds.
I have a lot going on in life - children with sn, just been served a section 21 to leave our house. We have viewings most days and I find this too much to cope with. I find it difficult to keep on top of the house and looking after the kids. I struggle every day although try not to let them see. I sometimes have to get up at 5 to organise uniform, washing etc as can't face it the evening before. I bath the kids 4 times a week but can't find the time or motivation to bath myself - sometimes for over a week. I want to but just can't.
today things just became too much. I suddenly realised that my dcs would be ok without me - they could be adopted and have a stable life. before every time I considered ending it all I couldn't consider due to dcs being left alone.
But the more I think about this the more it makes sense. I could just take them to school one day as normal, kiss them good bye and they wouldn't be any the wiser. In the long term they would be better off.
I have been trying to save money for moving but keep blowing money on clothes that the kids don't even need - spent 300 online last night at 3 am. I can't manage having to leave the house or have people in here.
Not sure why I am posting tbh. just feel like I can't cope any more and things will only get worse if I carry on living.
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Feel like the depression is taking over.
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arieschicke · 28/03/2015 21:41
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