Apologies for the long post! I have had CBT for post-natal anxiety twice (when both DC were babies) and counselling for an eating disorder & self-harm when I was a child. MH issues run from my Grandmother down and I'm desperate not to pass them on, but I don't feel my issues are resolved, or manageable at the moment, and I'm wondering what else I can try. I am a perfectionist & that has a big impact on how I feel as a parent & I'm working on that, but I'm starting to realise that I can't really handle any negative feelings, in myself or others, and I want help so I don't pass this on to DC (& to help me handle the normal low points of parenting without spiralling into anxiety). The trigger today was sitting down to watch a Disney film with DD (nearly 4) - it was the first time she'd seen it (I'd watched it beforehand to vet it so I knew what was coming) & I was literally sweating with worry that it was going to frighten her or that she'd ask questions about it that I'd not know how to answer (issues the film raises about death, relationships etc). It was an ordeal to hide my feelings (though I'm sure I did hide them) but it was only after when I realised that I felt wiped out did I start to reflect that perhaps that's quite an extreme reaction & I should probably seek some more help. I'm really trying with the CBT - my last counsellor told me that I need to push myself into social interaction (I avoid socialising due to low self-esteem and worrying I'm being judged or of things going wrong) and I do push myself every week, but I'm wondering if there's anything else I can try. Because of my background with MH I do feel like I've been through a lot of counselling already. My main concern - my only priority really - is that I'm not passing this onto my children or that I'm not failing them as a parent if my anxiety paralyses me or makes me handle things in a way that other parents wouldn't (ie being able to just sit & enjoy a film together), that is what I find most upsetting. I need to break the cycle & to not let my DC down. Can anyone suggest anything that might be worth a go?
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