Posted before Christmas about problems I was having with my bf. Managed to sort things out and had two amazing months since. He decided to end things yesterday and I just feel like I've fallen apart.
I have PMDD and am currently in my bad 2 weeks. I know my feelings aren't real but I feel like I'm in a black hole. I feel like such a bad mother. I keep crying and my 3yo DS keeps hugging me saying he's sorry and to stop crying.
I can feel that I'm on the brink of a panic attack and can't stop it.
Part of the reason he decided not to be with me is that he decided that I had changed so much that I was the girl he started seeing 6 months ago. I've been honest with him about my PMDD and how it controls me and not the other way around. I offered to go and see a doctor about sorting things but it's not enough.
I don't know why I'm posting here. I'm just so scared that I'm going to hit rock bottom like my last really bad bout where I ended up taking an overdose. DS goes to his dad's on the weekend I'm dreading being on my own and knowing I'm not in control.
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I'm scared of my feelings
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inthenickoftime · 16/02/2015 19:37
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