Am feeling really anxious at the moment and not quite sure where to turn... I had a weird moment at work today, where I must have come across as odd/ awkward at best. I have spent the rest of day going over and over it in my head, feeling really embarrassed and quite frankly out of my depth work wise. I've just read through the NHS pages on low self esteem and found myself sobbing to the end.
I've always been the organiser in the family but finding it increasingly difficult to take ALL decisions, having DP asking me questions at any given opportunity is not helping! I think possibly strain of xmas is just tipped the balance but I don't know where to go from here. I have so much to do but can't seem to even make a start. My kitchen is filthy, i still have 2/3 washes to put on and the report I was going to write tonight is not even started. Instead I am just sat here not being able to move from the sofa. I spent much of yesterday in bed, convincing myself i had bad period pains, but I really just couldn't face anything. I don't know what to do. I would feel such a fraud going to the doctors, would consider some kind of therapy longer term but know I can't get it sorted immediately. Does anyone have any suggestions to help me with the next few days?
I have always been known as quite an awkward person, not something that I'm proud of. I have an unhealthy relationship with booze too which does help me get over some of the feelings in the short term but I have been lately drinking to extreme. I am dreading xmas as I really don't think I will make it that far without really fucking up somehow.
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Anxiety or just festive stress?
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WundaWumman · 16/12/2014 00:00
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