I know there are lots of us in the same boat re. health anxiety but lately I've had a major set back.
It's severe. I think about bad health all day long.
I have lots of contact with GPs - about seven times in the last two weeks with different gripes all 'adding up' to cancer of one sort or the other. I truly believe I have cancer. I have been urgently referred to an affective disorders team but heard nothing as yet - it was about a week ago.
What's feeding it all is that I just don't feel like a 'well' or healthy person and I feel like every day there is another ache/pain/symptom to contend with which all feed this horrible, horrible focus on cancer and the absolute conviction that I have it.
To give you all some idea symptoms include:
- Depression
- Tiredness
- Aches in my chest (right hand side) leading to jaw and arm (I've been told this is a trapped nerve but I'm finding this very difficult to accept. I think it's a tumour pressing on nerves
- Nausea - like morning sickness but I'm not pregnant. Poss due to PMT and hormones
- Aching in areas where glands are - neck, groin, behind knees
- Feeling like the glands in my neck are swollen
Other 'one off' symptoms - which seem in my head to equal lymphoma
- A lesion on my hand
- Itching all over body on one occasion
- One night of night sweats
I have had a full blood test done by the GP - which were all normal.
However I have read that you can have cancer or lymphoma and still have normal bloods.
The GP is not concerned about tumours or lymphoma and I've seen several - and a couple more than once - in the last few weeks. However I do feel that my health anxiety (and the fact that they all know I have it) makes them kind of just reassure me given the amount of times everything has been all right in the past when I've thought I've had a brain tumour, breast cancer etc etc etc etc etc
DH is rightly fed up of me, DM is too, I can't focus on anything properly as my main concern is my health.
I'm sorry for the massive rant - I just wanted to get it all down and 'out there'.