"Summer is Coming, the Village is warm and safe - support for depression, anxiety and other MH issues"

[LollipopViolet]

New thread, everyone :) First attempt at a thread title for us.

I've just posted on the old one, am really struggling today. Was feeling numb, still do, to be honest. Need to get myself through today.

[MrsNoggin]

Can I join in? I lurk a little on the other threads, but have never caught one at the beginning. And they can be tricksy things to join in on half way through...

[LollipopViolet]

Of course you can MrsNoggin :) Yeah, the threads move fairly quickly, I find it hard catching up if I even miss a day, so tend to fall of them quite often!

I am feeling better, I think I'm going to take a book outside a bit later and read in the sunshine.

Or maybe I'll take the camera outside and take some photos, not sure yet. I just know I will definitely go out in the sunshine today :)

[Wipedoutmammy]

Glad you're hitting the sunshine lollipop. Lol it's raining here. I'm helping ds with a homework project and going to a soft play area with dd after the cpns have been. Welcome mrs noggins. I'm new here but am finding the honesty and support brilliant. Xxxx

[NanaNina]

Thanks for the new thread lollipop and a good title........haven't seen you on the thread for a while but then I think we all dip in and out (I know I do) but there's always a warm welcome when we come back. Can you say what has made you feel so bad today?

Wipedoutmammy would you be in Ireland by any chance, or Scotland maybe? Sorry if you don't want to say - it's just I have a son, dil and grandchildren in Ireland and I know they say "mammy" and I know it's raining there today - as usual!

[Wipedoutmammy]

Lol. I'm actually Scottish living in Ireland so there's no chance of me escaping the rain nana. I don't know if you saw on the other thread that is replied to your questions re the kiddies ages xxxxxxx

[MrsNoggin]

Thanks for the welcome guys!

I've had a really tough week actually, but am feeling a bit more positive today. Started back on old medication after a terrible debacle on new ones that have left me with some severe anxiety and agrophobia (which I have never had a problem with before!) and I think they are starting to kick back in.

The sun is shining and I feel like I should be doing something outside with the kids, but we are watching Peppa Pig and cruising over the housework.

[fluffybunnies246]

Having the s***t weekend from hell. Can't seem to do anything but cry anything triggers it. Children outside, birds (!) Anything. Can't go out even even into the garden as someone might tr see me. I feel like I just want to die tbh. Been waiting nearly 3 weeks for dr appt which isn't til Thurs but seems a bit pointless anyway. I'm fed up of feeling like this can't hold it together for the kids who are with their dad again. They'd be better off with him anyway as he is not like me.

[Wipedoutmammy]

Big hugs fluffy,

I so know how you're feeling. I had a day like that yesterday. What I can guarantee you is though you will get through it. The kids may be better off with their dad today only because you need a break but this will pass. I didn't think so yesterday but I got some fantastic advice and it has. Be good to yourself today. Do something nice for yourself xxxxxxx

[VandaDarkFlame]

Hi all, I just stumbled across your threads today and wondered if I could tag along? I struggle put into words how I feel without it sounding like mumbo jumbo and thought it might be better for me to write them down. If not its ok x

[fluffybunnies246]

Hi vanda of course you are welcome
Thanks wipedoutmamma currently fighting the temptation to take 2 months worth of sertraline in one go...bloody hard I get so much at a time as I am so 'sensible' and gp likes to keep prescription costs to a minimum ( v kind). The sun makes most people happy but I find it hard with the old self harm scars (they are v old)...I prefer winter when I can cover up in comfort!

[SnowyMouse]

Welcome vanda and mrsnoggin I'm playing catchup with my meds, I forgot to take them with me, oops

[MrsNoggin]

That sucks fluffy. Not everyone likes the sun, I'm not keen on the stuff myself. Your GP sounds good, wish mine would do things like that. I don't really know anything about you, being such a newb, but I can say to you - don't give into that temptation! And don't let yourself give a turd about your scars. You could have got them anywhere (not that you did, you got them fighting illness, something not to be ashamed of at all). If you want to go and sit out in the lovely afternoon sun and let it warm your face and let the breeze kiss your hair, you bloody well do it.

[Wipedoutmammy]

Welcome vanda

Aw fluffy so sorry you can't enjoy the sun. I have a nice selection of Long sleeved floaty shirts. I'm sure you've thought of that though. What age are your kiddies? Have then saw your scars? Xxxxxxxxx

[LEMmingaround]

Great title lollipop. Nice to see you again but :( that you are feeling rubbish.

Anxiety us very high today.

[Mentalpsychiatrist]

Nice shiny new thread.

Sorry you're feeling so anxious today Lem.

I've managed to get my arms and legs nicely sunburned because I am an idiot who skipped putting on sunscreen. On the upside, my garden is now weedless.

Back to work tomorrow . Who knows how I'll cope with getting up in the morning but it'll be nice to see my team again.

[NanaNina]

Hi nethuns saw your post on the old thread and that you are stressing about work tomorrow, and DH not really understanding. I hate it when I am stressing/agitating over something and DP just dismisses it with a casual remark. We've been together over 40 years and I don't think he's had more than a few days minor illness in all that time, so doesn't really understand, though he is patient with me when the dark bad days come. Maybe you do need to think again about work, as it's stressing you - I know you need the money, but could you cut your hours maybe. Sometimes we get more anxious about things beforehand than when we actually do the thing, if that makes any sense.

Welcome MrsNoggin and of course you can join in - what meds are you on - it's all so hit and miss isn't it with mental health meds, although I think that can be the case for physical illness sometimes.

wipedoutmammy I did wonder if you were Scottish - as you said "ach" .........you are sounding a lot more together just lately. Do you feel any better.

Welcome Vanda - would you like to tell us a bit about yourself.

fluffy I'm so sorry you are having a shit time and I really can empathise with you, though of course none of us know how the torment of mental illness affects others, we only know how it affects us - and then of course it fluctuates and we think we are ok, and then it knocks us over again. Can I just say that SSRIs are not fatal in overdose, so you would end up alive but with more problems than you already have. Saw that the DSS were fucking you about - I really feel for anyone having to rely on benefits these days as it's all being made so difficult for people and they don't understand about mental illness. Hope you can get it sorted next week. How long have you been on the sertraline - wondering if a change in meds might help?

Hope you enjoyed your family weekend Snowy and Lem what are you anxious about?

I'm anxious too........oh god to think I took my mental and physical health for granted for so many years of my life. It is certainly true that we don't know what we have till it's gone.

Re the sun..........it is nice if you are well enough to sit outside or can relax outside, but I've found when I am feeling really crap I can feel worse if the sun's shining, cus I think I should be happy. Oh god I'm rambling now so will sign off and "see" you all next week.

[LollipopViolet]

Well, after helping my gran do some work in the garden this afternoon, I feel lots better. I think once I'm a bit further through my training (childcare) and can see myself working with children I'll feel better.

And next time I feel numb and want to check I can still feel things, I'll pinch myself rather than scraping my fingernails along my arm, because that just made me feel guilty that I'd done it. The marks have gone now, took ages though.

[TheSarcasticFringehead]

Hi! I'm new (to this thread). Started fluoxetine recently.

[SnowyMouse]

Welcome TheSarcasticFringehead

Does anyone else feel low after they've had a good event, I know some of it will be tiredness?

[LEMmingaround]

Its the health anxiety again Nana - big time, had such a lovely day with DP and DD today and it just made me scared that i am going to lose it all. My lovely friend is needing lots of support and i give it happily as she is such a lovely person but i am struggling because its so close to home. Even though i know i am ok, i keep thinking, that could be me - then i feel guilty,then i think, what if they got it wrong :( Am going to go back to the GP after half term - but today i really struggled. Might have a diazepam later.

So nice to see lots of new faces, sorry if it takes me a while to catch up.

[LEMmingaround]

cross posts there snowy, well i am glad you enjoyed your event, but yes - absolutely - i had a lovely day today and feeling just awful. I have had a fair amount of alcohol this weekend, not a great deal but i haven't been drinking very much so i wonder if that has sent the anxiety into hyperdrive as i was coping really well but now feeling overwhelmed.

[ClosedAuraOpenMind]

cautiously peeps up and waves hello......

been on fluoxetine for about 10wks now, started off on 20mg but have had to go up to 40mg. since then been feeling better more of the time, but still days where I feel detached from my life

not really many people know how much I've been struggling, so would be nice to have some folks to chat to who know what it's like

[YeGodsAndLittleFishes]

Can I join in here? More as support for DD (on Prozac) than me (though I do have bouts of mild depression, but just not right now.) I do feel the need of the company.

[LollipopViolet]

Oh, forgot to tell you all my big news...

I'm on the waiting list for bereavement counselling with a local service. 8-12 week wait apparently, and a maximum of 12 sessions, but hopefully it'll help me sort my head out.

[YeGodsAndLittleFishes]

Not sure what use non-first-hand experience is...DD said she didn't feel any different on flouxetine for ages. I noticed a change in her though. We haven't had any fights since she's been on it and nothing's been broken. She wasn't battling so much with depression/extreme low mood as much and instead was experiencing more social anxiety and 'ordinary' emotions more keenly. Seems to have settled a bit now outwardly. She's on a low dose, which might go up after exams.