Hi
Never posted before, so not sure what I'm expecting really - bit of advice, people to tell me I'm not the only one...? I initially posted on the parenting bit, but then realised it is probably here that I should be writing.
I think I may be suffering from a touch of the blues and certainly it has got to the point where my DH has made me make an appointment to see the doctor, but I just seem to spend my days shouting at or crying in front of my two children at the moment - DS, 5 and DD 3. Every morning I wake up and think, 'Right, no crying, no shouting' but then they test me and it happens all over again.
My DS is being particularly tricky at the moment - arguing about EVERYTHING, answering back a bit, not listening etc. and I guess that upsets me as we have always been so so close and at the moment he seems like a different boy. The trouble is, instead of dealing with all this calmly, I end up ranting on and on at him about it, usually crying at the same time and saying totally stupid things like, "what happened to my lovely little boy?" and "I can't go on like this" (so ashamed of myself - I know it is wrong...) My DD obviously overhears all of it.
There is a definite sense of relief in them both when DH gets home from work and someone normal and more steady turns up - which then makes me feel even more weepy.
What can I do? I feel like I am just messing everything up and that I can't make it right now. Are they just going to grow up remembering me as this irrational weepy mess? I always had in my mind that I was giving them this magical, happy and stable childhood and now I don't know what to do.
Any words of wisdom or advice out there? Has anyone else felt like this and tried anti-depressants and found they worked?
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OwensMama · 02/05/2014 11:56
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