Tonight I go for counselling...

[shhhh]

Well for those of you who know me esp on this section will know I have been suffering with pnd since dd was born May05.
I started on ad's in the Nov and got pregnant this May so I had to stop the ad's.
I'm 17 weeks pregnant and over the last 2 weeks I have been feeling myself slip back into the pnd hole that I'm sure so many of you are aware about. My concerns range from not wanting anyone to have dd,to thinking I'm a bad mother to wanting to leave dh . I have also had family issues to contend with which have not helped.

Well I saw my hv this week and she has suggested counselling. TBH I never wanted this as an option as I didn't see how I would benefit BUT dh has suggested going private and my 1st session is tonight. Just a meet and great session I know BUT what should I expect at other sessions..???? What help should I see myself getting.? Will it really help me.?

I really need help as my concerns are leaving dd when I go into labour. Sure a long time off and it may be at night but the concern is there..I need this help. Anyone with advice. xx

[MoreTeaAnyone]

Just go and tell the counsellor all the things you've said here. They'll know where and how to take things in future sessions.

I hope it goes well for you, I felt good after some sessions and I'm sure you will too.

[shhhh]

I spoke to her on the phone to tell her the basics and she said all my problems stem back to the pnd as they bring up all sorts in people.
She seems to think she can help. I just so hope she can. I'm quite excited as I want to move on. I hate feeling like this and hate feeling so negative all the time.
I emailed dh last week saying I wish we could all run away to a dessert island, just him, me, dd and bump. Bless, his reply made me cry..He said, "at least I have made the journey this time" as all I have been saying is I wish me, dd and bump could run away. Sad to know that I have been mean to even him. He of all people doesn't deserve it or even me. .

Will these felling disappear though or could it not work.? How can speaking to someone solve things.? BTW they also offer hypnosis..not sure if I like the sound of it..scares me slightly...

[Pinkchampagne]

Sorry to hear you are feeling so low, Shhhh.
I had PND after the birth of DS2 & was offered counselling. I ended up having 12 sessions & they really helped me through a tough time. I also went back to the same counsellor recently as I was starting to struggle again, & again I found the sessions really helpful.
Good luck & I hope you are feeling better soon.x

[MegaLegs]

Hope it goes well shhh. I'm on a waiting list (10 weeks) to start some counselling for depression. Just starting on this journey so I'll look out for your posts. Sorry unable to offer advive, just sending a hug and good thoughts. xx

[shhhh]

thanks champers..I hope they do help.
Think my main issue is "self worth". Things that have been said by family have left me questioning myself and my mothering skills. Usually I wouldn't give a damn but the pnd takes over..will let you know how I get on. xx

[shhhh]

thanks megalegs. I know how you feel. . Sending love and hugs your way as well. xx

[Pinkchampagne]

How did it go, shhhh?