Feeling very down and confused

[anonanomoly]

I have had to change my name for this one, just because its easier to get this out anonomously. Since having baby at the beginning of this year, I have struggled, up until now I have managed to cope - or hide it. Over the past two weeks things have got so bad, I have found that I have no feelings - love or hate - towards my husband and I have asked him not to touch me or kiss me as I can't stand it. I have very little patience with my other child, shouting at him for things he would have got away with before, I also feel guilty about everything, my older child starts school in two weeks and he's dreading it, I'm always really positive about it but its getting me down because I had a bad time at school, he doesn't know anything about it, he just likes his playschool/nursery routine. Anyhow I'm now at the point where getting up and out is a struggle and weekends I just don't want to leave the house, I'm so down that I don't feel like talking to people. My job (full-time) is also stressful. I arranged to work half days whilst he settles in to school, I have just found out that his second day I have been booked in to go to an all day thing in London. I feel distraught, I have no control over anything, its like everything I have to deal with is on a carousel which I can't stop and everything is just spinning on around me. I have made an appointment to see my GP today because I want to feel better before school starts and also with my DH. Thing is I have found now I don't know what to say to her, how do I explain without it sounding rehearsed because I have wrote it all down but it doesn't look right, I'm so lost and sad. I feel guilty for feeling like this, I have only really confided in DH and BF, she just says I should be glad for what I have and reminds me 'no-one is dying'. We have good jobs, good lives and 2 healty beautiful children, I can't explain why I feel like I do.

[BudaBabe]

Sounds like PND and any GP worth their salt should pick it up straight away. Go in with what you have written down or just print out what your just typed on here.

Hope you feel better soon. I'm sure there will be lots of people able to give advice from experience on here.

[bnm]

anonanomoly how are you feeling today? Have you been able to do what BudaBabe suggested?