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fucking shitty pissing facebook (warning, child abuse)

(6 Posts)
childabuse Sun 20-Oct-13 14:44:51

(I've name changed)

I just want to sit here and cry.
I just logged on to facebook to see a photo my grandmother has uploaded of my uncle, his wife and 2 sons all looking happy and relaxed on the beach. They don't live in the uk but came over to see family last week.
I just want to sit here and cry
How dare he be looking happy and relaxed. How dare he be sat with his family while I'm sitting here crying.
how fucking dare he.
All I want to do is sit here and cry. He took my life from me. i'm slowly getting it back, working on my mental health and seeing a private therapist. One that costs over £180 a month. We scrimp and save to get that money together each month to see her and yet he gets off fucking scott free. I have night mares and flashbacks and yet there he is sat on the beach staring at me smiling. How fucking dare he.
Dh has taken our dd's out today so I can stay home and relax and now, just because I thought I'd check facebook, I'm a mess.
How fucking dare he carry on living whilst I want to kill myslef.
I just need to sit here and cry

I'm so sorry love. Big hugs xxx flowers

childabuse Sun 20-Oct-13 15:55:10

Thanks sunshine. I'm actually feeling a lot better now I've had a good cry and rage about it. It just feels so unfair. Now I sound like a hold blush

I'm constantly swinging between why shouldn't he continue his life and the bastard should die. But deep down I know it's partly my fault as I lied to the police, I refused to tell them what really happened... Suddenly I can hear my therapists voice telling me that's not quite right! I really wish I was seeing her soon. sad

childabuse Sun 20-Oct-13 15:55:34

Gah child not hold!

I'm glad you're feeling better. You don't sound like a child at all. x

monkina Sun 27-Oct-13 20:41:52

I'm so sorry to read this. I'm glad to hear that you're seeing a therapist to talk things through with, it's so important to have an outlet for sharing what has happened to you.

Please try not to beat yourself up about not telling the police the truth when asked. You are not alone, and remember that none of this is your fault.

There is still time to give a factual statement, the police have highly trained officers these days who should understand that many people take time to admit what really happened to them.

If you do decide to speak to them again (and I would encourage you to do so), they may well surprise you - there are also plenty of child abuse websites that can offer you excellent advice and support should you want to contact them.

Sending you strength and wishing you all the best - do not let this man take away any more of your life x

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