I was seriously sexually assaulted within a relationship as a teenager, and went on to have several similar, abusive relationships as a result. I have now been fairly happily married to a good, caring man for some years, and have children, a career, friends and a decent life. Yet I cannot shake the feelings of very low basic self worth, dirtiness and self hatred.
Over the years I have tried counselling, CBT and have had psychiatrtic treatment, but I feel nothing really helps to ease these horrible, dark feelings and thoughts I have about myself. I am diagnosed as bipolar (fairly recently) and have been trialling various medications and done another CBT course, but nothing helps. Outwardly, I am competent and confident, but inside I feel disgusting, dirty and damaged. I dont want to feel like this any more.
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When therapy hasnt helped <abuse, possibly triggering>
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Derangedrover · 17/10/2013 12:54
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