I have spent the best part of the last ten years "dealing with" the repercussions of severe abuse in childhood: police/ court proceedings (failed), taking practical steps (injunctions against threatening abusers, moving far away, changing name etc), mental health crisis (in the beginning, suicide attempts, then on and off depression, anxiety, PTSD, panic attacks etc), counselling for years.
Its only relatively recently that I feel that the abuse issue is not the main thing in my life and I'm left almost wondering who I am/ what to do with my life.
I have achieved alot in my work life (I think I coped by being a workaholic, really, where others might have turned to drink/drugs). I have been consistently poor though. I'e started to wean myself off that as I realize I need time for me and the children.
I just feel I have no idea how to start building a "life" for myself having been just working/ surviving/ dealing with crisis for so long. I feel almost like a teenager who needs to define who she is, because during my teenage years I was abused and haven't had much time out to "be me" since then...
If anyone has any ideas of how I can start to "build myself up" please let me know. When people are chatting about sport, TV or pretty much anything else I never know how to contribute, I can count on one hand the number of times I have watched TV in the last ten years, I have been so preoccupied with counselling, self-help books etc and am totally out of the loop, I don't even know what I enjoy doing.
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Need to build my life, where do I start???
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JamJarOfDaffs · 19/09/2013 19:50
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