Desperately.
I can't admit this to anyone in RL because they will think I'm mad. The people close to me know that I've got depression and I'm going to the doctors tomorrow because they want me to but I have never told them how desperate I am to die.
I fantasise about it.
A lot of my major depressive episodes are caused by this frustration that I can't do it (because of family).
I can't tell OH because he panics. He told me the other day that he's worried to get too close to me in case I do it. I stopped trying to talk to him about it after that.
I'm sorry to post something so dark, and I'm sure no one cares, but it feels such a release to final say it "out loud".
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I want to take my own life
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Khaleasy · 08/07/2013 21:00
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