Really struggling today

[mooseisabunny]

I just feel so sad and hopeless, like if I disappeared I wouldn't be such a drain on people around me :(

[SnowyMouse]

Hi moose, do you want to chat? In real life there's the samaritans (08457 90 90 90), but I'm not saying don't post here, just a thought as some people find actually talking to someone helps.

[mooseisabunny]

idk, everything just seems like hard work at the moment, and problem after problem. Im never excited or happy about anything and its bringing everyone around me down

[SnowyMouse]

Have you felt like that long? Sounds soul-destroying

[mooseisabunny]

around a year, i saw he gp last week, taking some tablets now, but i dont feel like a tiny pill can help me

[catherine19]

It will get better. Hav a good cry it always helps me. Is there anything triggering today being a bad day? How long hav u been feeling like this? it sounds like ure depressed? It's likely the people around you are really being brought down by u but don't like to see u suffer, there's a difference. Pick one, sometimes someone u hardly no is useful, and cry and talk. If there is no one u feel u can do this with, I once felt the same go to ure gp or talk to ure hv. They will b able to help. I went to my gp and basically said depression and cried and he was useful. Good luck x

[SnowyMouse]

It sometimes takes 4-6 weeks for the tablets to work. Can you tell yourself that you need to wait out the time?

[mooseisabunny]

thanks for the replies, i kno they dont ork instantly, but was hoping to not feel so much worse
i feel embrassed that people know, i was also planning on adopting but dont think this will be allowed now it is on my gp record

[Ilikethebreeze]

I should ask on the adoption board on MN about that. They will most probably definitely know. fwiw, and from what little I know, I would not have thought that would rule you out as that would rule out about 1/3 of the country.

[catherine19]

Did ure gp offer counciling as well as ad? Cos usually both are needed. I'm sure seeking help for depression and presuming it has improved enough for u to go through the complex process of adoption it shouldn't rule u out. Speaking from experience telling people in a controlled matte of fact way can help. If u had a broken leg u wouldn't keep it secret and depression is an imbalance of chemicals in the brain not ure fault. I no it's hard to d but exercise is known to help and looking at greenery so sometimes a walk if u can get the motivation. I no leaving the house or even getting out of bed can b a challenge.