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Depression, anxiety and Ocd

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sailorsgal Tue 07-May-13 17:21:00

How are you?

BaftaAwardPlease Sat 04-May-13 22:20:57

Ps I don't drink alcohol at all, all though at times I am tempted.

Thank you sailorsgal I may pm you smile

BaftaAwardPlease Sat 04-May-13 22:17:42

Thank you for all the advice it helps to read that others have felt the same and I'm not going mad.

I have had my medication changed a lot over the last few months due to them not working or really bad side effects, I am still getting quite bad side effects from my anti depressants which the gp is reluctant to change again because I have tried so many now, I also have propranolol which I take as and when needed they do help take the edge off and relax me a bit but my anxiety is so extreme that the fear is always there. I don't even know what the fear is of but I just can't seem to do things outside the house.

I do have the odd, although not very often good day where I can plough through the housework and do loads, most days though I struggle even with the minor things, I try to do it bit by bit through the day, it really gets me down hmm

I have closed all from all my friends I see no one, sometimes I can't even be bothered to answer the phone because I just don't want to talk.

How my life got like this I will never know.

I asked the gp about counselling but was told there is a 2 year waiting list I also asked about cbt to which I can't even remember the reply. Does anyone have or had this?

I had an extremely stressful situation a few years ago which I think has put me where I am today, I am not even half the person I was, I used to work in a stressful long houred job which didn't help.

Unfortunatelyanxious Sat 04-May-13 17:39:51

Sorry just thought that looked a bit like an instruction sheet, obviously it helped me but doesn't mean you ave to do it.

I also agree with sailorsgal that you should go back to GP as meds affect everyone differently so would be good to have a review.

Unfortunatelyanxious Sat 04-May-13 17:34:20

Yes to everything you have written. I do have a job but have been signed off work for coming up five months so have major guilt. I spent almost two months in the house completely when first ill as last dc at home is at secondary school so no school run.

I started walking to the end of my road, I totally pooped myself but then built up from there. I remember the day I managed to go to the local co op as feeling like I was taking a first step on the moon. I then made myself walk for twenty minutes a day, if people were coming towards me I would cross over the road. I do still cross over the road sometimes but have got a bit better.

I stopped drinking all alcohol.

I watched a lot of incredibly rubbish non taxing films to try and take my mind of stuff.

I let everything housework slide, then I decided to make myself do a few little tasks a day. I give myself a time slot usually 10 to 15 minutes and then do what I can in that short time period. It's like a little competition with myself.

I still struggle but really concentrate on cooking dinner .It feels just about the only way I can show my family love at the moment.

I got in touch with a MH charity and attend a day centre most days, just for an hour or two. It means I have to leave the house. As everyone there has issues I actually feel less stressed in their company as no judgement.

Just try and do the tiniest thing, you have to build up slowlyI have done this over three months. You just can't be exactly as you were before immediately it is frustrating. I do still have very hard days where I don't leave the house but they are less now.

sailorsgal Sat 04-May-13 17:11:46

You are not a failure. Can u go back to your gp? Isn't there ad's that can help with the anxiety or propanalol which can be taken along side maybe. I have felt like this so know how you feel. Pm me if u like I have tried many things and I can tell you what has helped me. I am taking a holiday by myself which is a big step for me. There is light at the end of the tunnel. :-)

BaftaAwardPlease Sat 04-May-13 15:37:15

I have depression and severe anxiety I am on medication but it doesn't seem to help that much, it helps with the depression but not the anxiety.

I don't leave the house hardly ever, I can't do it, school run is a nightmare I literally wait till the last minute get out the car, pray dc is coming out & doors are open so I can get back to the car.

I have to shop online, a few weeks ago one of my Dc got an award at school & had to stand up at the end of an assembly I promised I would be there, it got to the day and I felt physically sick, had panic attacks literally till the time I was ment to leave the house & yes you guessed it I didn't leave the house I couldn't do it hmm my dc was ok but what a failure I am.

I fear contact with people socially I just can't do it, I live a life in my house, I can't work but really need to because of bills we can't just live on dh's wage, the pressure distresses me, how the hell can I get a job with other people when I can't even do the school run or food shopping?

I think my anxiety is causing ocd, I have to constantly check things over & over & over again I can't rest, I could check then 5 minutes later I need to check again, I know, I should crazy.

I am exhausted from myself, I feel a failure as a wife, mum and even a human being.

Has anyone else ever felt like this? Will it get better? What can I do?

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