Like you are constantly working towards "something" although you are not sure what it is? Im not sure if i am in some kind of denial, since divorce, recently ending another relationship. I literally cannot stop. I think it is a symptom of anxiety. I NEVER smile, i am totally aware of this. Yesterday someone made me laugh, i cant remember the last time before that i laughed and i had a "rush" through me. I just want to be content, happy on the inside, at peace. I feel like i need to be a certain way first, ie the house decluttered, thinner, better job and it goes on. I am very productive, but ultimately it isnt making me happy.. I never feel good enough, i underestimated my abilities etc and i never praise myself.. i just keep going. My memory is terrible, i just want to be on a path to something and remain on it, instead of feeling lost. I have no direction. I am stuck in an old train of thought since my divorce and i feel like i dont really know who i am anymore. I dont believe i will ever meet a decent man, but feeling this way i probably wont! I am taking citalopram 20mg. I dont feel as depressed as i did, but i score high on anxiety. Anyone else feel like this? and how do you get out of the "trap"??
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