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cant stop punching my head; can someone pls distract me!!!

(17 Posts)
PainForLife Thu 11-Apr-13 10:53:37

so the day has started with another wonderful punching session. I can't seem to stop. seeing my psychologist at 2. somehow got to be able to get through the day until then!!!

PainForLife Wed 10-Apr-13 20:39:28

I'm ok thanku guys. manage to speak to someone after all in the crisis team. they came round and calmed me down - gave me some medication don't know what is was. also left a sleeping pill for tonight & I'll be seeing them in the office tomorrow.

I still feel strange. the voices are still bothering me but flashbacks have calmed down. also got family around me now to stop me doing stupid things!

coughingbean Wed 10-Apr-13 18:29:18

Are you ok?

DioneTheDiabolist Wed 10-Apr-13 15:28:22

I have to go out now. If the crisis team don't get back to you soon, call them again. You are important, worth their time and deserving of their help. If and when you feel this way again, jump and punch out. Your abuse is his fault, not yours, so direct your punches out, not in. Then make a cuppa, have a cry and stroke your face and hair while making soothing "there there" type noises. Comfort yourself.

You are lovely and deserving of love and lovely things. Take care Pain.smile

DioneTheDiabolist Wed 10-Apr-13 15:13:17

How are you doing now?

PainForLife Wed 10-Apr-13 15:11:33

not yet they must be having a busy day!

DioneTheDiabolist Wed 10-Apr-13 14:53:48

No problem. Have the crisis team called back yet?

PainForLife Wed 10-Apr-13 14:51:11

sorry dione stupid phone

PainForLife Wed 10-Apr-13 14:50:44

thanks Diane for your kind words

DioneTheDiabolist Wed 10-Apr-13 14:44:09

Ok Pain. I will be around for the next half hour. so you do that and come back here if you need.smile

PainForLife Wed 10-Apr-13 14:40:53

I'll try

DioneTheDiabolist Wed 10-Apr-13 14:18:17

That's good. Now while you are waiting, jump and punch out. You are not disgusting. You are not dirty. You are angry.

It is not your fault. It is your abuser's fault. His face is in your head. Imagine that it is right in front of you. Right in that space where your fists are and jump and punch.

Can you set a timer and do this for 10 minutes Pain?

PainForLife Wed 10-Apr-13 14:04:28

thanks Dione just rang my the crisis team. they are going to call me back.

DioneTheDiabolist Wed 10-Apr-13 14:02:48

If there is any delay, go out and run. If you feel you cannot leave the house (while waiting for your appointment), jump. Up, up, up, up. Put some non-relaxing (maybe angry?) music on, turn it up and jump to the beat. The rhythm and physical jarring will have a similar effect to the punches. But please, please call for help now.

PainForLife Wed 10-Apr-13 13:58:37

I feel disgusting & dirty right now.... it's like it's my punishment to never ever forget... hw can God make me a mother when he knew what a disgusting b***h I would become & to think a month ago I was thinking it'd be nice if I had partner & my DD could have a nice brother or sister. I mean WTF was I thinking that somehow all this would stop happening if I had my perfect family.... didn't consider the intrusive thoughts would be there forever....

is it possible to go somewhere & erase your memories???

DioneTheDiabolist Wed 10-Apr-13 13:56:32

Call your GP or mental health professional (if you have one). Do it now and tell them what you have written here and demand to see someone immediately.

PainForLife Wed 10-Apr-13 13:50:33

I've tried watching tv & listening to music. I've tried breathing exercises & relaxation techniques, taken my pills... even had a fag!!!
but nothing seems to working I.keep.seeing images of my abuser in my head.

so the I punch my head for that split moment the pain takes over & the image disappears!!!

I feel trapped - I can't carry on hitting myself or can I???

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