I'm sorry but this is going to be quite long.
I've been married for over 13 years, two lovely children.
After I had first DC I suffered from depression. It was a combination of having a first baby and lots of changes with work, house, etc that all happened at once. I was in denial for a long time and my DH had to more or less drag me to the GP. By then my DC was over 1. I was prescribed Citalopram and took it for just over a year and then gradually came off it. The medication really helped except for almost entire loss of libido which I still suffer from almost 7 years down the line!!!
When DC2 came along I was a different person, I knew what to expect with the new baby, I was very calm and composed and things were going pretty smoothly.
However, something happened in the last year or so. I've started feeling increasingly isolated, very irritable, constantly angry with DH and DC1 expecting them to help. But it seems that no matter how hard they try I am never satisfied and always manage to find something else to be angry about. I'm very worried about the effect it has on my relationship with my family.
Initially I thought that I was perhaps suffering from very bad PMS, I tried taking herbal supplement Agnus Castus but it didn't help.
My OH and I have terrible rows and divorce has been on the cards a couple of times now. I do feel he hasn't been as supportive this time as he was when I first got ill. However, depression aside, I feel that our relationship has hit rock bottom. We seem to have no common interests, We don't do anything as a couple (mostly for financial reasons), I don't even feel attracted to him anymore. That said I know that he is a great family man, I know he loves me and adores his kids.
I've been feeling so low recently that every morning I open my eyes I think oh, no, not another day! I feel really confused and don't know what to think. Am I will again? Or am I just trying to hide behind the big word Depression and not facing up to the fact that my marriage is over?
I would appreciate any advice and opinions.
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Am I depressed or is my marriage falling apart?
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Fullsteamahead · 09/04/2013 18:33
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