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I think i'm losing it

(28 Posts)
BattlingFanjos Mon 04-Feb-13 21:33:40

I've wanted to post about this for a while now but there is a chance that the 'woman' I am posting about is on here (paranoia kicking in - I have no other reason to believe she is). I posted briefly in legal but not to much avail (good advice buy my hands are tied). Anyway, around 13 months ago I had a minor disagreement with a friend (we were REALLY close, saw each other pretty much everyday) and she completely flew off the handle. I'm sure I played my part but she got really nasty. She called Social Services and made a horrific abuse claim about my son. She reported me to the Benefit Fraud team. She tried to attack me in my son's nursery. She sent horrendous text messages (I changed my number). She has a history of overreacting but not to this extent. I got to a really dark place after it all. I was cold, moody, shouty, my relationship with DS (now 5) was strained. I cried almost everyday and had a break down about four months later. I decided to kick myself up the arse and refuse to allow her the satisfaction. However, she has started it again! I have had no contact with her since 'the argument'. She lives very close to me, but have only seen her once (yesterday) in over a year.

She has reported me to the benefit fraud team again (all lies) and when I saw her yesterday, I ignored her, turned away and she walked right up to me, right past me well out her way. I lost my vision, I was shaking, heart was pounding. I was so angry, true blind anger. There is not a day goes by I don't think about her/what she has done. I am shaking writing this in case she sees it and gets the reaction she's been pushing for. Its taking back over my life, i really feel like I am going mad, I want to scream and cry and lose it! It's there ALL the time, no matter what I do. I tried so hard to put it behind me, life is really good but now it's right back in the front again. Sorry for long post, I just really needed to get it out, I need to deal with this and have no idea how sad

BattlingFanjos Sat 09-Feb-13 10:18:41

Its strange to think its only been a few days since things felt so bad because I've turned a corner! I've got an initial appointment with local MH team on Wednesday (can't believe it was so quick!) and my landlord called and offered me a new house! Much better than mine at the moment and further away grin I'm starting a new job on the 4th (after 5 years sahm) and have so much to look forward to. Its nice to feel in control again. Thank you for helping! Especially Nina thanks xxx

amillionyears Sat 09-Feb-13 10:26:56

Yeah!

BattlingFanjos Sat 09-Feb-13 13:53:19

grin onwards and upwards

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