Hi, i haven't posted on this board for quite a while. This is probably going to be quite a long post so sorry.
My back story is that I had a difficlt birth and really bad insomnia and sleep anxiety almost immediately after DS1 was born. I was diagnosed with PND and was put on Mirtazapine when he was about six weeks. This helped with the sleep but made me a bit dazed etc. I also put on quite a lot of weight whilst on the Mirtazapine. I was on the meds for about two years in the end. I found it almost impossible to wean myself off them in the end as I just stopped being able to sleep when I stopped the tablets. I was a teacher and ended up leaving the profession. This was not wholly due to the PND/meds but it definately influenced it.
My DH was great and helped me every step of the way but I do feel a little guilty at having put him through all that. I now have a good job in another career which I am really enjoying.
DS is now 3.5 and I am pretty much back to normal although I have not been able to loose the extra weight. DS has always been a bad sleeper and although he has greatly improved, he normally wakes at 5.30-6.00 and there are still nights when he wakes up for an hour or so. Two bad nights sleep in a row still causes me to panic and think that I will never be able to sleep again.
Even when at my worst I always loved DS and never really had any negative thoughts towards him. Now he is a glorious, happy three year old who gives me hugs every day and who I couldn't live without.
My problem is that I don't want another child but I am not sure if this is just because I am afraid about history repeating itself or because I actually don't want another child. Basically what I don't want is to turn round in ten years time and regret not having another child. DH would love another child but I know he won't preassure me into it if I don't want one.
I wasn't offerred any counselling when I had the PND but am wondering whether it would be helpful now. What do you think? How would I go about getting counselling? Would it be better to pay for it privately rather than ask for an NHS referral?
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Do you think some sort of counselling would be helpful?
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midnightisaplace · 28/01/2013 21:03
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