So much history, probably boring. I have bipolar, dd was born in August. She has been a very difficult baby, finally diagnosed with reflux and cmpi. But before that we've had hospital admissions, tube feeding and weight loss. As well as the screaming.
I was in a mother and baby unit until November. Things were bloody hard. We have a DS too, who is 3. We had to pay for him to go in full time childcare, and DH had to take loads of time off work.
DH never wanted a second baby, and then he change his mind. Except apparently he didn't, he recently told me that he just did it because he thought I would always resent him. Turns out it has been as hard as he imagined. We were having relationship counselling ad things started to get better.
Then two weeks ago I fell down stairs and broke my foot. And now things are awful. I can't look after the children, DH work won't let him have anymore time off. So they are in childcare, which we can't afford as I am on statutory maternity pay. We have maxed our overdraft, we can't borrow any money. DH is exhausted, he is having to work full time and do all the evenibvstuff himself, cooking, cleaning, bath time, bed time etc.
He is exhausted. Tonight was horrendous. DS just whines and cries all the time. Dd is a bad sleeper an will only really sleep in day on pushchair, but at childminder she can't. So today she had 1 hour and screamed hysterically for 2 hours. There was nothing I could do, jut hold her. I couldn't rock her or take her out in pushchair. And DH is angry I can tell, I know he blames me for all this.
I hate my life. It i so shit. I want to end it. I can't do it anymore.
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I just can't do it anymore, it's too much
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raininginbaltimore · 23/01/2013 19:54
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