I apologise this might be a little long...
I don't even know where to start...
I have a DD who is 5 next month, she is my entire world. I wasn't even sure I wanted children because I was abused as a kid and didn't want to end up like my mother or not being able to protect my child from all the nutcases out there. DD was the best 'mistake' I ever made! I wouldn't be without her now.
The situation at the moment is as follows
We've been in a hostel for almost 9 months after being made homeless by a 'friend'. It's a family hostel, so no druggies or alcoholics (unless you count the woman next door who has a DS who is 15 and gets through a bottle of wine a night) but all the other mums have children under school age and don't consider my DD has to get up at 6.30 to go to school, and play loud music, or talk on their phones right outside our room. The woman downstairs shouts down the phone from 6-11pm. It is starting to drive me more bonkers than I am already!
My DD has just been put on the SEN register for BED (behavioural and emotional difficulties) and the school are going to do a CAF form next Friday. She has also been seeing the play therapist since November. I've had to see the deputy head (who is really lovely), her class teacher, and the play therapist this week and its only Wednesday! Yesterday was the first time since going back after the break my DD hasn't had a meltdown when I've had to leave and that was only because the deputy head came into the classroom to read to her as I was leaving.
Yesterday I got m appointment for the breast ultrasound and fine needle aspiration next Tuesday but the appointment is after school and I tend to isolate myself so have no one to watch DD, and I don't think I can take her with me because of the BED. So I'm frustrated because I am trying to find an alternative and worried about the appointment itself. I tried to rearrange but was told the consultant doesn't work mornings (alright for some!) and from my notes the consultant needs to be around when I have the ultrasound done, also it would be best to do it sooner rather than later. I haven't really worried too much as I'm only 26 and the chances of BC are low, but that comment yesterday worried me a little.
I would talk to my CMHN (community mental health nurse) but I stopped seeing her in early December because she can be very rude and makes me feel like I'm doing something wrong. I'm still waiting to ear back from CMHT about seeing someone else. I need to see someone else because she was supposed to be formulating a preliminary diagnosis. So far, apparently it's been on my record for years I might have PTSD but the CMHN was starting to think I had a mood disorder too.
My dds grandma (fathers side) is a complete pain in the backside and messes my dd about when it comes to visits and my dd gets really upset about it.
I feel like my MH problems have increased my dds problems. Especially the mood thing, which I would begrudgingly have to admit the CMHN might be right about. I feel I'm being pushed from all different angles and I'm suffocating. I feel like I'm about to explode or implode!
It's just too much...
Sorry I just needed somewhere where people can understand how hard it is to be a parent with MH issues....
Please or to access all these features
Please
or
to access all these features
Mumsnet hasn't checked the qualifications of anyone posting here. If you have medical concerns, please seek medical attention.
Mental health
Im running out of ways to keep myself together... Really stressful times!
5 replies
Dinkysmummy · 16/01/2013 07:07
OP posts:
Please create an account
To comment on this thread you need to create a Mumsnet account.