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Yes a huge pain!

I can say it out loud but it maxes it seen more real for me and I panic even more

i do similar but if i think it and then say it out loud i believe it wont happen! sounds mad but it is the only way i can cope. i too am awaiting an emergency appointment with a psychiatrist. it is a pain isnt it.

Thank you xx

It will get better. Well done for talking to the GP,
Chin up chuck.
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Well I went to the gp she was very lovely and understanding and has put me forward to speak to someone and help me.

She also said It sounds like I am suffering with depression anxiety and OCD and if it doesn't get better after a few sessions then she's to put me on medication to see if that could help my feelings I'm also having my implant out as she said that can make you depressed and anxious so she is hoping it will calm down after I've had it removed but I have also been on a period for a month since having it and that's getting me down also.

Thank you for replying I hope to keep in touch with you xx

Hoping it went well for you today.

I do try and breath through my panic attacks but once I get in that state of mind panic just runs straight through me.

I remember when I was pregnant, I got into an argument with my partner and because I raised my voice a little panic took over and I thought I had hurt my baby through shouting and I locked myself in my bathroom crying my eyes out because I felt so awful for shouting while pregnant with her and would not let him in to talk to me. I do not want to be this way anymore I just want to be relaxed and happy.

I'm just praying the doctor can get me in to see someone as soon as possible

Yes, I thought that was what you meant. I imagine a part of you is annoyed because you know it's irrational. My dear MIL was a worrier, if someone was going a long car journey she felt it her duty to worry, that that would somehow keep them safe, even though she knew this wasn't the case, she still felt she had to do it.

Do you do breathing exercises for the panic? Long ago I taught breathing on the Expert Patients Course, it does help some people.

I didn't mean if I thought them they would actually happen I mean I think something bad and because I've thought it then I panic because I've thought it, it will happen.

Yes I'm seeing my gp later on today so I'm hoping he can help

Hello, sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

Myself, I don't believe in karma, but I can understand how it can seem like that. Strangely, I do find that if I find a focus and start to act on it, the universe seems to help out - but I reckon that is just me getting out and about more, and being sensitised to notice things that fit with my aims.

There must be times when you have thought things will happen - and they didn't. And I don't suppose you've been able to predict everything that happens, good or bad.

With a new baby, it is natural to be a little anxious, all your protective instincts have been activated, but it sounds like your brain has overdone it.

so you say you are going to see someone about this? That's a very good start.

I live my life on edge and its making me crack up!

I haven't had a bright life was abused by my father from age 4 til 12 until I was brave enough to tell someone and since then I've had nothing but bad luck it's as tho karma isn't on my side and I don't know why I try and be a nice person but I always get shit on!

I live my life on edge I could be sat there and think if I go out right now I'm going to get hit by a bus do then I won't go out because I feel like now I've thought it karma will make it happen!!
I've recently had a baby and I'm terrified of losing her and when I think like that I get in such a panic because yet again I've thought like that karma will make it happen!

Why is this happening to me I just want to be happy and bad karma free I want to be able to enjoy my life but I can't because I live it around karma!!

Im also ruining my relationship because if this I'm driving him away because I'm constantly causing arguments and accusing him of anything and everything!! I'm losing it :'(

I see all these mums that are awful mums and people who are bad and they live a great life!!

I'm getting to a point in my life where I feel like I can't go on because I'm sick of all this negativity and bad luck in my life!

I know I need too see someone but I need to get it all out now as I'm a wreck right now because I just want an easy life a break from all this badness but I keep falling and I still haven't hit rock bottom yet that's how I feel!

Please I just need a friendly person too talk to as I'm so upset right now