Dont know where to put this really but I am struggling big time.
I have 4DCs ranging from 8 to 2, DP works long hours although is great when he is here, we have no family help at all so it's just the 2 of us. We haven't had a night out together in over 8 years.
Today I pranged the car, not dented just burst my tyre, DP will have to come home and sort it out now.
On top of the usual money worries we are building a much needed extension to our tiny house, it's taken over 3 years and much stress to get to the start of building which was last week. This week they found problems with the foundations which needs more work and a lot more money we don't have. DP stresses about money constantly but especially now everyday he goes on about spending etc, I used to be a nightmare but am now on a strict budget in which I try to scrimp and save every pound which isn't easy with 4 growing DC.
Then there's Christmas, I wish I could just forget it was happening this year and wake up on the 1st January. Everything seems like a battle with DP about money, we don't go mad but like to give the DC a good Christmas, I know we have to cut back this year I accept that completely but he's on about getting stuff from the Poundshop!
The DC are also a complete nightmare just now all they do is fight and argue. I'm running about like a headless chicken cleaning, tidying and breaking up fights.
I honestly don't want to get out of bed in the morning, I wish I could run away, I won't of course but I have no joy, nothing to look forward to.
DP then texted me to say than he feels our relationship is one sided he gets nothing from it and constantly feels he has to pick me up :( I know I'm depressed but everything is just too much, it's just so hard.
I've been to the doctor before with depression and anxiety was on ADs which never really helped, came off them a while ago. Doctor basically said I have to sort my life problems out. I feel really bad as I know so many who are struggling with much more than I am, feel a bit pathetic really. I love my DC to bits but feel so overwhelmed by them.
Thanks for reading this don't know what it will gain posting.
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Just can't cope with it all anymore
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sweetkitty · 12/10/2012 14:21
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