I have namechanged because I am ashamed that I did this but I want to understand why.
As a child between 10 and 15 I wrote letters, I wrote them as if they were hate mail from someone else (no one in particular). I deliberately let teachers find them. I don't remember why I did this, but as a mother now I realise it is not normal. I know that if my DC did this I would see it as an issue which needed to be tackled, not brushed away. I don't know how I would tackle it but I know a caring teacher or parent would seek advice if needed and help their child to overcome their problems.
They were hateful calling myself a horrible person, I remember there was a focus on the 'writer' hating me because my parents were divorced. I am so confused as to why I did such a ridiculous thing, I don't think I was ashamed or particularly hurt about the divorce and my parents did their best to minimise the effect on me.
What confuses me is why my teachers didn't tackle this. I was generally spoken to about it and on at least one occasion taken to the headmistress who said she thought I had written them myself. I denied it and nothing was done.
I am not aware that my patents were informed. If my DC did this I would expect to be informed as I would want to help them.
Maybe I am feeling sorry for myself but I feel the teachers failed me. There was clearly something wrong and it was never addressed.
I would love some ideas as to why I would have done this. Maybe it was good old attention seeking? In hindsight it seems likea disturbing thing to do and I wonder what was / is wrong with me?
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As a child I wrote hate letters to myself and let teachers find them- I want to understand why
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Orangecat100 · 29/01/2011 10:56
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