can someone help me

[emjoe]

Can you please help me get over my fears- i feel like i am falling apart, why is it when my kids get ill i cant handle things, my son had this flu thing a couple of weeks ago and now come down with the same symptoms and i am now thinking he has something wrong with him, am i the only one who always thinks bad thoughts and has this feeling of not doing enough when i know i am doing all i can for my children, i hate feeling like this i cant eat or sleep and feel guilty for always thinking the worst, my kids seem to get everything going and look at those around me whos children get nothing- surely its cause i am a failure at being a mum and i am letting my children down, i feel so low i work hard at being a good mum but i must be doing something wrong for them to get ill- please someone tell me i am not the worst mum i love my kids so so much but feel like i am losing the plot.

[madmouse]

Hang on....open your eyes and read mumsnet and listen around you and see that everyone's kids seem to be getting every lurgy going at the moment. My ds has been off colour and one of my friends had a ds with chickenpox and a dd with sick bug. I ended in out of hours doctors last week and it was full of feverish children coughing their guts up. What makes you worry that it is just you? It's not hun.

[FlightoftheCrimbleTree]

This is something a lot of us will recognise. You're not alone

take a deep breath, talk to us.

You don't sound like a bad mum to me. You do sound like you have a lot of anxiety and stress to cope with, though.

Are you on your own?

[emjoe]

I do try and rationalise how i am feeling and seem to spend every free moment i have on here to see if people are going through the same things and yes they are but why do i have the inablity to rationalise that they just have a bug or virus why does everything in my head turn things into alot more sinister? I am so frightened at losing my kids or me having something wrong and leaving them, i thought i had this under control until a close friend has been diagnosed with terminal cancer at 35 and now dont seem to feel so in control.

[emjoe]

Sorry not on my own have a loving husband and great family, so whats wrong with me!