I think I need to be sectioned. Please can someone support me

[INeedHelpImDeseperate]

I had a complete melt down last night. Completely lost it. Screamed shouted threw things smashed crockery and was violent towards DH
I have no idea why. It stemmed from some thing trivial. I have been suffering from depression for years I think. I usually 'just get on with things' -I really don't have another choice. I have been to embarrassed to see my GP, have either cancelled appointments or made up a fictional ailment at the last minute I just cant tell anyone how I feel.

Today DH has gone to work as normal. I am numb, I know I need help. I don't know how to get help.
I rang my surgery but they have no appointments left. I want to just walk in and collapse in a heap and ask for someone to please please make me feel normal. I can not cope. I am not coping. I want to curl up and sob and sob and sob. Or just walk out the door and keep walking until I dissapear and become invisible.

[Tortington]

sounds like depression to me. You need to ring back the gp and ask for an emergency appointment

[bellylaugh]

Agree you need to see your GP as soon as you can, tell them you need an emergency appointment.

Can you ask to see a practice nurse, sometimes easier to get an appointment and then they can access the GP for you.

Please do get help.

[INeedHelpImDeseperate]

Im scared. I have no idea what to say. It took me five attempts to even ring last time. The receptionist said there was emergancy apps left, wanted to know why I needed an appointment so she could decide if I could have one and I didn't know what to say. I know I'm an emergency but afraid and overwhelmed and just want cant cope with making that phonecall again.

[bellylaugh]

Please be brave and phone again, say you really need an emergency appointment and if asked why, say you really need help today and it can't wait. You don't need to go into details.

[INeedHelpImDeseperate]

I am going to try in a minute. I feel so stupid. Please will you keep posting? I feel so alone.

[bellylaugh]

Don't feel stupid, you are being extremely brave. Let us know how you get on.

[INeedHelpImDeseperate]

this isnt normal depression is it? i feel so strange. thank you for your support.

[bellylaugh]

It sounds as though things have come to a head as you mention you have been feeling depressed for a long time.

[luckywinner]

It totally is normal depression. You sound like me about 3 weeks ago. I am now under the care of a psychiatrist and am on some good drugs and I am beginning to feel a little bit calmer. You can do it. Call your gp. The first visit is the hardest. Will wait on this thread for you. I know exactly how you feel. I think it is always something trivial that is the straw that breaks it iyswim

[ohforfoxsake]

You had a melt-down. You need to recover from it. Try not to panic, take each hour at a time.

Make a cup of tea, and sit, drink it slowly.

Don't rush into anything. Healing is a process. First thing you need to do is calm your mind. Just for five minutes.

Like you, I just get on with things. But, on occasion, I have had a God-Almightly freak out (usually at DH). There is usually a trigger which I can recognise.

What triggered yours?

[stripeywoollenhat]

you don't need to be sectioned, you just need some help. go ahead and phone - quietlysuggests gives good advice on what to say. you will be able to feel better than you do now, just ask for some help

[chocoholic]

Making that appointment will be such a huge step. Well done you for knowing that you need some help.
Your GP will be understanding. Just blurt out how bad you feel, and how you are finding things so awful at the moment and don't feel right. It will start the conversation and it will be so easy after that.

[ohforfoxsake]

And yes, curl up and sob and sob, if that is what you want to do.

We can set about helping afterwards.

[Eleison]

Just adding my support. You don't need to be sectioned, but you do need to see your doctor quickly because it isn't fair on you to be suffering like this without help.

Take a deep breathe and try the phone call again. Practice a sentence for the receptionist, like "I need an emergency appointment because my depression is at a crisis. I'm sorry I don't feel up to saying more."

Very best wishes and good luck. xx

[luckywinner]

While we wait for Ineedhelp to come back, don't you think it is so sad how there are so many of us in these desperate sitautions, and how painful it is for all of us. Depression is such a cruel cruel illness, and I am not sure, unless you have been there, that it is easy to understand.

[ohforfoxsake]

It's all part of being human, isn't it? Which is why it is so important we recognise it and accept it as normal. There is no shame in it. And no shame in asking for help.

It is sad, but because so many of us have experienced it, the good that comes from that is our understanding. I hope we can help Inneed because of what we have experienced.

[ohforfoxsake]

And yes Lucky, I agree that its hard to really understand unless you've been there or have been close to someone who has.

[INeedHelpImDeseperate]

oh god Ive done it. I hung up on her twice, I just couldnt talk, third time she realised it was me and was lovely and appologised for having to ask the nature of emergency.
I feel better for getting this far. Im so grateful to you all.

[Eleison]

That is brilliant. Well done. You have achieved a lot by doing that. So now concentrate on being kind to yourself for the rest of the day.

[hotcrossbunny]

Do you have a good friend you could ask to help you? They could then organise the appointment for you. Or you could just turn up at the surgery and say you need urgent help. You've done a fantastic thing posting here - there are many MNers who have been where you are and will be able to support you.

[hotcrossbunny]

Sorry, X-posted. Well done! When is your appointment? is there anyone who could stay with you while you wait?

[luckywinner]

That's great Ineedhelp. Are you going today? Don't be brave in your appointment. Tell it like it is. They really will listen. You might have to do a little tick sheet with questions. Make sure you don't think, oh, I'm ok. You have been really brave. This is a big step you have taken and you should be really really proud of yourself. (hope that doesn't sound too patronising).

[ohforfoxsake]

Well done.

[bellylaugh]

Well done, when is your appointment?