I am new to this part of the board, so please be kind.
My GP bullied me (in the nicest way he could) to see a counsellor on the NHS. I can see why he would want to, as I really want to die, but as I said at the time, it is really difficult for me. I am always exhausted and he believes it may be Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, eg I found it impossible to walk fifty yards, found it a massive struggle to stand up after kneeling, lots of pain etc.
The GP has also said that he needs a mental health assessment for the CFS diagnosis. I am not even sure I want a diagnosis, as there is no cure and I would just have to get on with things anyway.
Since May I have seen this counsellor exactly once. First it was her holiday, then she would be on a day off, then she was ill, then my ds was ill. She will only consider booking me in every fortnight, and if I miss one then I would have to wait for the next fortnight.
I did rearrange, and rearrange, and rearrange but then I forgot, I have no idea what day I should have gone and as I have been looking after a sick child, a sick husband and running round after my elderly father I was a bit low on being bothered.
Something that worries me, I watched the last episode of Sherlock and when I saw the people with bombs on, I couldn't understand why they were not happy, because they were going to die. It seems really hard to think otherwise but I suspect that it may not be a good thing to think like that.
I really don't know what best to do about counselling. Is it worth trying to find someone local and private, or should I wait until my son is at school and I have more options when I can get to counselling (I have no local support or anyone who could look after him). I am a bit bothered, and I have no-one I can discuss this with in RL. I would appreciate any views.
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wannabesybil · 29/10/2010 17:02
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