Hmm. It's hard to know where to start with this.
But my brother, whom I adore, has had a severe breakdown - and has revealed horrific abuse from my parents throughout his childhood. He is now 46.
I'm reeling in so many ways - the confirmation that my parents were abusers - I'd managed to rationalise my way out of this one despite evidence to the contrary from my own childhood - and the fact that he now has multiple issues including bipolar, ocpd, ptsd, and occasional psychosis.
I'm so very sad and angry for him - he's a wonderful man and has had a lifetime of half-baked therapy, all of which he has managed to walk out of without anyone chasing him up, and at several times my parents have bullied him into dropping treatment, and now I know why.
I'm terrified that I too have these things and that I won't be able to parent my children properly - I'm a single parent - I'm terrified that I'm going to abuse my children, I'm completely unable to tolerate the fact that my parents abused him - I mean they abused me too but not nearly so badly - and I'm terrified of the impact of this news on our older sister who is in many ways still like a child.
Has anyone been through anything remotely like this? OR can offer advice? My instinct is to go back into therapy immediately .
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wickerman · 05/10/2010 08:44
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