I have posted a little about this before in chat (so it would disappear quickly) and also in employment.
I have experienced a really difficult two months at work where I got given a written warning for poor performance, met core objectives set but they told me either I will resign or they sack me. I chose to resign due to the effect it was having on my mental and emotional health with all the stress.
The original written warning was never investigated/diciplinary procedures were not followed and when I appealed it was basically rejected and again no procedure was followed.
I feel now like I haven;t stuck up for myself and I am so, so angry at myself for it! I want to stick up for myself but the very thought of having any conversation with my employer makes me feel sick at the moment. I can't go to HR as the main lady there told me that maybe it was best that I had resigned considering the medication I'm on. :( I stupidly made the mistake of telling work that I had been given anti depressants and medication for panic attacks since this whole thing started as I was struggling to cope.
So Friday was the worst day so far. I was so angry at myself for not having stood up for myself yet felt unable to still, was full of self hatred all day and spent most the day in tears. I eventually emailed a snr manager to tell them I was going home sick at 4pm as my head was pounding and I was such a state.
Also since handing in my notice I have hardly got anything done at all because I'm finding it so difficult to focus.
I didn't want to go off sick but I feel like I can't go on. I feel so overwhelmed when at work and worry about work when I'm not there. When I am there i'm not achieving anything because I'm so stressed out and I'm making loads of mistakes because I can't focus. Then I end up full of self loathing because I'm being so useless at everything.
The thing is if I go off sick I am worried that work will turn even nastier than they have been so far. I didn't get a response to the fact I was going home on Friday and I'm sure they will be angry about that. I have three more weeks to get through - after that it has been agreed that they will pay me for the remainder of my notice period but I won't need to work. I'm worried that if I have any time off then they will make me work into that period.
I don't know what I want anyone to say but just needed to post to get some clarity or advice.
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wineonafridaynight · 11/09/2010 18:15
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