hi
I left my dp six months ago. he wants me to come back, and while I feel sorry for him, I really don't want to return to him. I just don't see how 'giving it a second chance' could possibly work when I don't want to give it a second chance, and can't help not wanting to! he has made me feel so guilty that I almost wish I could make myself want him again (does this sound mad?). He did a lot of things that were very hurtful, humiliating and enraging while we were together, and I just cannot bring myself to forgive him Or rather, I can forgive him on an abstract level, but I don't want to live with him, have sex with him, etc.
But everytime I see him he tries to kiss and hold me, tries to manipulate me by making me feel guilty (says he is lonely, says he has no life without me) etc. I DO feel very guilty as I have taken our 2.5 y/o dd to live with me, and that's no small thing. He does, however, see her two days a week and I have told him he could have her overnight if he wants to, but somehow it never seems to happen.
If I try to be honest with him he simply explodes with rage, which is usually followed by horrible threats (that there will be custody battles and so on), which is usually followed by suicidal-sounding, despairing phone calls.
I am happy to always be close friends with him, and even intend to move closer to him so he can see our dd more often, but I simply don't want to reconcile, and he will not accept this, or even let me tell him how I feel. I am so depressed, so guilty, I feel like such a bitch. Can anyone help (or even relate?)
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Mental health
ex dp will not let me go (warning: long)
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Caththerese1973 · 21/08/2005 07:19
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