have been feeling good for the last 2-3 weeks which i know is excellent as for the last 18 mths been on a rough ride. but the problem i have is i am now taking pride in my appearance and seem to be enjoying the relaxed feeling i do think its the new drug they put me n when i was in hospital in April/may. they put me on a mood stabilizer i have also lost a stone and a half in weight. i went in the loft the other day and managed to find my old clothes i put up there years ago and never thought i would never fit in them again. i was a size 18 so the 14s went in the loft am now a 14 again and i feel good for it.
the problem i have is this feeling good and taking pride in myself is making me feel strange and guilty. should i be doing this because i used to do this as a child and had 10 years of abuse fro my dad and step dad and also raped by a stranger. so part old me says go back to being the scraggy person then noone will touch me. but i am kind of feeling good in taking pride in myself as people are taking notice of me too saying how good i look. i am scared someone is going to abuse me again. i cant talk to my physc about it because he is saying how well i am doing and looking and i am not sure he will understand from a woman's point of view especially abused woman. i am going to try and speak to a lady physc this week who i get on with but then think am i being silly. will these feelings ever change. even my hubby says he has notice that he hs his old wife back from 16yrs ago being smart and taking pride in herself. i dont know what to do
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angel2001 · 17/07/2010 08:17
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