The fear

[wishiwasacollie]

Is it just me. I spend every day waiting for something i have done wrong to materialise. Shake every time an email comes in in case its a query about something I have done. Constantly anticipating problems.
People think I am good at my job. They dont see the fear and worry.
Isee people working. No one else seems to worry. They just get on with it.
Anyone else like this. If so how do you get over the constant fear

[ICancelledTheCheque]

Do you have anxiety? That doesn't sound normal to me

[Soapalert]

Is your boss a bit of a bully?

[bluecashmere]

Sounds like anxiety to me too. What is the atmosphere like where you work? What happens to people who do make mistakes?

[wishiwasacollie]

Boss is lovely. Mistakes are sorted. No blame culture. Yes its a high stress job. Its just me

[cheerup]

It's not just you. I go through phases of extreme anxiety of this kind and it can be exhausting. Not that I ever let anyone at work know. I just carry on and internalise it all. Then sometimes I am OK and can press send on the email without having to read it 12 time and catastrophise the various outvomes. The irony is that people always say how competent and confident I seem. I do think you need to "feel the fear and do it anyway" and embrace the acts that make you feel most scared; I don't know that I've conquered the fear but I feel that I am finally making progress (except for when I'm not). I am now about 20 years in to professional working life - I have wasted so much time, energy and opportunity waiting for things to go wrong. Another irony - things have gone wrong, but never the things I have laid awake worrying about and I have never left a job with anything other than a glowing reference.

[wishiwasacollie]

Thank you cheerup. Our experiences are the same....good point about the wasted time and energy

[ShesGotAMapOfTheWorld]

I feel like that. I know rationally I am good at my job and have had a lot of praise, I'm a good manager and my own manager is great. However my anxiety means that I can't accept it, and whenever a senior manager asks for 5 minutes chat I start to panic that they have seen through me. I'm having therapy and apparently it's common in women, it's called imposter syndrome.

[wishiwasacollie]

That you shesgotamap. Good?) to know its not just me. Will look up imposter syndrome

[Autumnchill]

I know exactly how you feel. I work in a company where people just 'disappear', my line manager most recently who I enjoyed working for.

Someone described it recently as constantly feeling like you're being hunted. HR ring and I immediately think it's my turn for a chat!

[Chocwocdoodah]

Just stumbled on this thread and thought op might be interested in a very similar thread I started a while back. ...www.mumsnet.com/Talk/employment_issues/2683462-Does-anybody-else-feel-like-a-massive-fraud-at-work?pg=2&order=

[wishiwasacollie]

Thank you.

[AlmaMartyr]

I have this too. In my case it's mostly anxiety I think, although possibly a touch of imposter syndrome. I've had CBT which helps.